Okay, so I do not know why all of a sudden I don't have motivation to do ANYTHING but sit on my fat lazy butt and eat potato chips or whatever else loaded with carbs and sugar while I plant myself in front of the tv or computer. I seriously have GOT TO STOP!!
I have givin up all my goals and I feel like a big, fat, jello-like, LOSER. *sad face* I need to get back on track. I hate being bigger, and no I do not at all think I am Obese but I know this is the biggest I have ever been and I truly truly hate it and dislike myself a lot for letting myself get this way. My mom always tells me "You know what to do to change that." Well yes I do know what to do but really I need to figure out a way to remind myself of what I do not want to be. Starting with pictures of my nasty chub self in my car. That's sometimes where all my eating habits start is at the drive thru. If I see my nasty fatness in a picture on my dashboard maybe it'll stop me from eating the double cheeseburger with fries. I want to be motivated to go to the gym again. If anyone wants to join me, you are more than welcome but this needs to be for me and needs to be a change for the good. I am going to try and be strict with myself until I loose about 30 lbs, which if I am good should be before the end of the year. After that I will still eat what I enjoy but in MODERATION! Seriously folks I am going to come to terms with the fact that the food is NOT GOING TO DISAPPEAR if I dont EAT IT RIGHT AWAY! I get into this mode when food is placed in front of me and I scarf it down because it's like "Live for the moment right?" Eh I don't want to live for the moment because you don't know what could happen.
I know someone who was only 38 who died of a massive heart attack, I don't want that to be me and I want to prevent whatever I can.
So I am going to sit down now and decide when I am going to the gym and maybe having a structured day of when I am going to the gym will help. It's defiinitly a start. Oh and NO MORE SODA *sad* But seriously liquid sugar isn't something I need in my body or for my teeth. So there ya have it. Baby steps. I think I can I think I can I think I can I think I can...
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September 2, 2011
June 27, 2011
I am the worst
I am the worst blogger, seriously there is so much I have done but just haven't wanted to post about, Sorry for those who want to know what I am up to in my life I am gonna make a bullet list of things I have done so far this month and then give you some updates on other things
I have lost a couple of pounds since I last weighed in but I still have a long way to go. I am running another 5k this coming month for my moms work, I am very anxious to start school, I am also looking for a part time server job so I can keep busy and bring in some extra money, especially since I have been buying lots of clothes for school.
My Girlfriend Amanda is taking me to see Harry Potter 7 part 2 and I am seriously tickled pink! I can't wait!
I am looking forward to this coming month and to start school is going to be so exciting and I hope it's as fun as I think of it as
- Took a fishing trip to Schofield
- Ran a 5 K with Amanda, Abbey, and Torilynn, beat my record of 45 minutes with a 39 minutes, now I know that isn't the best but it's improvement which is all I can ask for, I have been running 11:30 minute miles, which is just an improvement for not working out at all.
- Did Fathers Day with all sides of the family
- Had my Mommy's birthday
- Went to Vegas and got sunburned
- Broke down in Mesquite leaving Vegas and didn't get home for about 12 hours. (It was miserable 105 degree weather and got misdiagnosed by the autozone guy bought an expensive alternator, and found out that it wasn't the alternator but the battery, and yes I was furious)
- Been fishing at the Resivor a lot.
- Getting out basement livable (I will post pictures when it's done but who knows when that will be)
- Tractor pulls
I have lost a couple of pounds since I last weighed in but I still have a long way to go. I am running another 5k this coming month for my moms work, I am very anxious to start school, I am also looking for a part time server job so I can keep busy and bring in some extra money, especially since I have been buying lots of clothes for school.
My Girlfriend Amanda is taking me to see Harry Potter 7 part 2 and I am seriously tickled pink! I can't wait!
I am looking forward to this coming month and to start school is going to be so exciting and I hope it's as fun as I think of it as
May 27, 2011
Goals
I have had many goals in my life, and the sad thing is I never have finished them. If anyone watches the biggest loser you saw who won and she is an amazing lady and I am glad she won, but she was one of the starters like me. Started strong and never finishes. Well she finished and finished first. I want to be like that.
So I am starting at almost at the bottom again and going to keep going until I get to the top. Here are my goals...
Weigh at least 130 at the end of the year. if I beat that well then I will set a new goal by the end of the year but I like the time limit I have.
Eat more Veggies, I seriously don't like them but I need to start eating better. So cutting back on sugars and carbs except on weekends and eating more lean protein and veggies and such.
Stretching, I used to be more flexible when I was in Dance an hour and a half a day at school but I don't do anything now so I am going to dedicate a half an hour to stretching at least 5 times a night.
My goal for the end of the summer/start of school is to have dropped at least 10 lbs. I know I can do that and I want to be a bit more attractive when I start school.
FIT into my old jeans. I have so many and I can't wear any, I want to have all those jeans I own someday be my "fat jeans"
Starting now. Go.
So I am starting at almost at the bottom again and going to keep going until I get to the top. Here are my goals...
Weigh at least 130 at the end of the year. if I beat that well then I will set a new goal by the end of the year but I like the time limit I have.
Eat more Veggies, I seriously don't like them but I need to start eating better. So cutting back on sugars and carbs except on weekends and eating more lean protein and veggies and such.
Stretching, I used to be more flexible when I was in Dance an hour and a half a day at school but I don't do anything now so I am going to dedicate a half an hour to stretching at least 5 times a night.
My goal for the end of the summer/start of school is to have dropped at least 10 lbs. I know I can do that and I want to be a bit more attractive when I start school.
FIT into my old jeans. I have so many and I can't wear any, I want to have all those jeans I own someday be my "fat jeans"
Starting now. Go.
May 3, 2011
Sunshine.
Since most of you know my cute Dave got out of the Marines only about a week ago today we have JUST started unpacking in our state of Utah. It's amazing to be home and even more amazing where we are today as a couple. I am truly more in love with my Dave today then I have ever been before, and tomorrow it mulitplies by two so you do the math for the next 70 plus years.
As you may notice I changed the blog, yes no more kisses to the moon (Previous blog title, because of the last deployment.) I am now on track to start Cosmotology school the end of July. I am anxious and nervous all at the same time. Dave is on track to start school at the local community college, and we're just so happy to be done with the military life style. Don't get me wrong it was an amazing journey but we are ready for the next phase of our lives.
Today I went with my Sister in law to see the movie Soul Surfer. Great movie and I am so blessed to have all my limbs. Which got me thinking how blessed I am, but during the movie all I saw was how much I wish I had teeth like that or hair like that or blah blah blah. (You get where I am going with this) I realized that I don't love ME anymore, not as much as I used to. I want to be so happy with myself every day and I am not currently happy with ME. After loosing about 30 lbs for my husbands homecoming last November, I shamefully have added 15 of those lbs back. I don't like me when I can't fit into my wardrobe, that I spent way too much on after working at American Eagle for 2 ish years. But that is not the point of this post, the point of it was about how I wasn't happy with me, and I want to be and I know being positive to your self is the first step, or even just thinking of the things that make me happy.. so from now on my blog is going to finish off with a positive comment, it could be anything, and I will be posting more often with happy thoughts and all that junk.
My next post will be for my goals but tonight I am going to say how thankful I am to have all limbs, and my health is good, (I could eat better) but it's good now and I will try my hardest to always maintain my health.
I am also thankful for my awesome mom, seriously she is the best ever! My Dad who is working so hard on our future "home" in the basement. My awesome in-laws, seriously love you guys! And how could I forget my Husband of two years (which seems to have flown by.) I am lucky to have a supportive and fun husband.
Also the fur babies running around my house, seriously 2 cats and a dog are enough hair to keep everyones head warm.
As you may notice I changed the blog, yes no more kisses to the moon (Previous blog title, because of the last deployment.) I am now on track to start Cosmotology school the end of July. I am anxious and nervous all at the same time. Dave is on track to start school at the local community college, and we're just so happy to be done with the military life style. Don't get me wrong it was an amazing journey but we are ready for the next phase of our lives.
Today I went with my Sister in law to see the movie Soul Surfer. Great movie and I am so blessed to have all my limbs. Which got me thinking how blessed I am, but during the movie all I saw was how much I wish I had teeth like that or hair like that or blah blah blah. (You get where I am going with this) I realized that I don't love ME anymore, not as much as I used to. I want to be so happy with myself every day and I am not currently happy with ME. After loosing about 30 lbs for my husbands homecoming last November, I shamefully have added 15 of those lbs back. I don't like me when I can't fit into my wardrobe, that I spent way too much on after working at American Eagle for 2 ish years. But that is not the point of this post, the point of it was about how I wasn't happy with me, and I want to be and I know being positive to your self is the first step, or even just thinking of the things that make me happy.. so from now on my blog is going to finish off with a positive comment, it could be anything, and I will be posting more often with happy thoughts and all that junk.
My next post will be for my goals but tonight I am going to say how thankful I am to have all limbs, and my health is good, (I could eat better) but it's good now and I will try my hardest to always maintain my health.
I am also thankful for my awesome mom, seriously she is the best ever! My Dad who is working so hard on our future "home" in the basement. My awesome in-laws, seriously love you guys! And how could I forget my Husband of two years (which seems to have flown by.) I am lucky to have a supportive and fun husband.
Also the fur babies running around my house, seriously 2 cats and a dog are enough hair to keep everyones head warm.
October 8, 2010
I am just a military house wife.
I have a jumble of thoughts tonight...stay with me it is gonna get crazy and if I switch topics mid topic... roll with it.
I have been in my new apartment for about a week now.. it's nice... getting clean I'll post pictures when it's done. Until then you'll have to wait in agony. I didn't realize how much I truly hate unpacking until I had to do it again for the 2nd time this year. I get to pack up and unpack again next august and hopefully get to pack and unpack again a year later. Boo.
Thank god I have a cat. I feel that because I own a cat, that dog people don't take me seriously for a pet owner. My cat acts more than a dog than some dogs... Darwin is just more convenient to leave at home for a day without worrying about accidents on my carpet. However he does get grouchy with me when I am gone all day long cause he misses me, and he misses the hand that feeds him. (He doesn't so much miss me.. if he could get to the food himself I think he would be okay, but he would weigh 45 lbs.)
I currently miss the gang of girls who aren't living here. I hate that Mrs. Baby is a 24 hour drive away and that Lil Amy and Stacia are about 4 states over. Thank god Stacia visits regularly :) [Hi Stacia, you're in the same state as me and Michelle right now... that's pretty awesome] I don't a lot of people from Utah but I do miss my mom and dad and my other family and some close friends. [Miss you guys]
I currently have a massive to do list and all of those do not include going out and playing every night, it also does not include being lazy all day and sleeping in until noon. However I surely wish it had all of the above. I feel like right now I have so much time on my hands but I will be singing a different tune in about 2 weeks when I have only 2 or 3 things checked off my list. Shoot I don't even have a list... first thing on my list is to make a list.
I am feeling blah... no reason other than I don't have my husband home. I truly and honestly apologies for this in advance but if you have posted anything sweet or loving about having your husband home and how much you love him and/or how sweet he is blah blah blah... I think I might have blocked you on facebook. Don't worry you'll be unblocked in a few weeks but I just didn't want to see it right now. Sorry. I swear it's just a phase.
PS I don't have a college degree, or a high paying job. I am a house wife working any part time job thrown my way. I do everything in my power to make my husband's life a little easier, and ya know what, that is exactly the way I want it. The choices I have made lead me here where I am now. I have an amazing man and I live a fairy tale life for the moment. Let me have my fun... and when I get back to reality I will work on that school thing. Don't judge until you have walked in my shoes.
Cooking for one is depressing... I'm going to invite people over to cook for so I can touch up on my cooking skills. As of April my "house wife mode" went off... and I think the starter is broken so I need to fix this in a matter of weeks.
Other than a few of the girls from 3/1 wives, the "friends" here are flake-y too. Lame.
Selling stuff on Camppendletonyardsales.com include a fryer, a set of dishes, and a tv. Nice stuff but guess which one I have been bugged about the most... Deep fryer. Good thing Michelle wants it so I don't have to travel far and she can now cook me fried foods until I start my diet.
Speaking of diet, I like my scale cause I think it lied to me this morning. I love the way it lies. But seriously I need to get back into the gym... that's only a couple footsteps away from my room. Not a big deal but waking up to go in the morning sucks.
Hmmm... I hate bugs here, and I hate that flee's can live here... Utah doesn't have a flee problem cause flee's hate the cold weather... I need cold weather in California please.
I'm done rambling.
I have been in my new apartment for about a week now.. it's nice... getting clean I'll post pictures when it's done. Until then you'll have to wait in agony. I didn't realize how much I truly hate unpacking until I had to do it again for the 2nd time this year. I get to pack up and unpack again next august and hopefully get to pack and unpack again a year later. Boo.
Thank god I have a cat. I feel that because I own a cat, that dog people don't take me seriously for a pet owner. My cat acts more than a dog than some dogs... Darwin is just more convenient to leave at home for a day without worrying about accidents on my carpet. However he does get grouchy with me when I am gone all day long cause he misses me, and he misses the hand that feeds him. (He doesn't so much miss me.. if he could get to the food himself I think he would be okay, but he would weigh 45 lbs.)
I currently miss the gang of girls who aren't living here. I hate that Mrs. Baby is a 24 hour drive away and that Lil Amy and Stacia are about 4 states over. Thank god Stacia visits regularly :) [Hi Stacia, you're in the same state as me and Michelle right now... that's pretty awesome] I don't a lot of people from Utah but I do miss my mom and dad and my other family and some close friends. [Miss you guys]
I currently have a massive to do list and all of those do not include going out and playing every night, it also does not include being lazy all day and sleeping in until noon. However I surely wish it had all of the above. I feel like right now I have so much time on my hands but I will be singing a different tune in about 2 weeks when I have only 2 or 3 things checked off my list. Shoot I don't even have a list... first thing on my list is to make a list.
I am feeling blah... no reason other than I don't have my husband home. I truly and honestly apologies for this in advance but if you have posted anything sweet or loving about having your husband home and how much you love him and/or how sweet he is blah blah blah... I think I might have blocked you on facebook. Don't worry you'll be unblocked in a few weeks but I just didn't want to see it right now. Sorry. I swear it's just a phase.
PS I don't have a college degree, or a high paying job. I am a house wife working any part time job thrown my way. I do everything in my power to make my husband's life a little easier, and ya know what, that is exactly the way I want it. The choices I have made lead me here where I am now. I have an amazing man and I live a fairy tale life for the moment. Let me have my fun... and when I get back to reality I will work on that school thing. Don't judge until you have walked in my shoes.
Cooking for one is depressing... I'm going to invite people over to cook for so I can touch up on my cooking skills. As of April my "house wife mode" went off... and I think the starter is broken so I need to fix this in a matter of weeks.
Other than a few of the girls from 3/1 wives, the "friends" here are flake-y too. Lame.
Selling stuff on Camppendletonyardsales.com include a fryer, a set of dishes, and a tv. Nice stuff but guess which one I have been bugged about the most... Deep fryer. Good thing Michelle wants it so I don't have to travel far and she can now cook me fried foods until I start my diet.
Speaking of diet, I like my scale cause I think it lied to me this morning. I love the way it lies. But seriously I need to get back into the gym... that's only a couple footsteps away from my room. Not a big deal but waking up to go in the morning sucks.
Hmmm... I hate bugs here, and I hate that flee's can live here... Utah doesn't have a flee problem cause flee's hate the cold weather... I need cold weather in California please.
I'm done rambling.
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